I was recently sent a post from the website The Numinous promoting their event called Club Soda. This event focused on what they called "sober flirting and sober confidence". Everything happens in divine order, as I had made a decision just weeks earlier to limit my intake of alcohol. I was beginning to see that I was having more than one glass of wine with dinner and it wasn't making me feel great. With the wine came the feeling of sluggishness and restlessness. I found it more difficult to get to sleep and when I did, I was waking up the next morning feeling unenergized.
When I arrived at Club Soda, I was amazed to see so many people at the event. The room was packed. I felt a little old as the average age was around 30, but it didn't matter. We were all just people who were curious to learn more about how to feel good without drinking.
Ruby Warrington, the English founder of The Numinous, spoke with love and a beautiful accent about her personal experiences with alcohol. She shared how she woke up one day after having one too many drinks, and realized she just wasn't feeling good anymore. She asked herself, "Why am I drinking when the aftermath is so unpleasant? What's behind my curtain that I'm hiding? What do I not want to reveal?"
Ruby wanted to open up the conversation about the shame and fear that surrounds why we choose to drink. She spoke passionately about how so many of us are looking for an escape, a way to numb the pain of loneliness and fear, or even to mask that feeling of not being worthy enough. She found that by opening up and sharing her truth about the deep pain that she felt, she would connect with other people. The conversation began and the community of Club Soda was formed as a safe space to share, open up, and connect with people who feel the same way. After telling us about her journey, she made us laugh when she said, "You don't have to give it up completely, you can be conscious and enjoy a glass of wine with dinner or a beautiful glass of champagne to toast a special occasion because it still tastes so good!"
Biet Simkin was the next speaker for the evening. She was a very powerful woman originally from Russia, you could feel her strong roots. She spoke of her personal experiences with drug and alcohol abuse. She used the expression "I am limitless." It means to believe in yourself exactly as you are. She led us in one of the most powerful guided meditations I have ever experienced. She asked us to choose a partner, and I found mine when I looked to my left and introduced myself to the woman sitting next to me. The music that Biet created specifically for the meditation was beautiful and haunting at the same time. It completely resonated in my being. She had us look into our partner's eyes. Looking into someone's eyes for 10 minutes is very intimate and after I felt as if I had known my partner for a lifetime. Biet then asked us to choose someone who was in our lives, past or present, who we felt loved us unconditionally. I chose my grandfather who had passed. My Papa's presence and his love was in my heart, my being, and all around me. I was even suprised by my tearful, emotional release. This excercise and meditation left me feeling protected, safe, and loved.
Biet helped us to connect to the internal feeling of love. When we feel loved for who we are, we love ourselves just as we are. There is not anything one cannot achieve, "I am limitless" became the mantra!
It has now been 2 weeks since the event, and I have seen a difference in my own consciousness. When I consider having a glass of wine, I ask myself "Do I want this? How is it going to make me feel?" When we stop and really think about what we are drinking, what we are eating, what we are doing, and how we are thinking - our purpose, our lives, and our inner world become so much stronger and resilient by drawing on the strength of who we are.
So the next time you are feeling low and want to have that extra drink, have a club soda. Connect to yourself in meditation and reach out to someone who is not going to judge you, someone who is going to love you just as you are. Life is so precious, we are precious. Let this new month of September be the beginning of a sobering and enlightening new version of yourself.
Join the community of The Numinous and feel connected to a group of wonderful people wanting to share, give, and heal a part of something within. You can join their Facebook page and follow them at @The_Numinous and @Guidedbybiet for more information on upcoming events!